When I was pregnant I decided I wanted to experience a spiritual childbirth. It was no question for me. I am a spiritual living person, I was doing my best do honour this months of pregnancy and so I was looking forward to the initiation of birth (and certainly I was freaking feared, but not so much about birthing but more about becoming a mother). I imagined a kind of candle lit, white, yoga-inspired angel like birth ritual. I thought birthing a soul into this material world would be a highly etheric procedure. Fortunatly I didn’t follow that thougths too far and I did not to often visualize birthing as this. Otherwise I would have highly been dissapointed by what I experienced really. I really experienced a mind-blowing sacred unbelievable wonderful (and certainly highly exhausting and going beyond borders) birth.
It was nothing like etheric or white light good smelling. And that simply was not important. Because Holyness and spirituality does not automatically mean candles. Meditation, incense – it can be surrounded by these things but these things are not the experience.
I experienced surrendering, being hold, being in a different reality. Floating. Real being. I know that I thought about 3 or 4 thoughts for hours. One was in the beginning „O goddess, this is like being an anmimal, this is raw, real“. And I think thats one of the problems our culture has nowadays with birthing. Its not a cultural ability. It’s far more real. More important and less under control.
I simply forgot to burn the incense, to put on the music. Nothing was important. It was not neccessary. I was birthing a soul into this reality, I was feeling my body, I was enlightened and an ape in the same moment. I was in the now.
So if you have not experienced birthing before: it will not be etherical. It will not be angelwhite. It will be earthy. As earthy as it could be. It will be sweaty, maybe bloody, exhausting, extreme. And thats the sacredness about it. Giving birth is not a mind-mastered simple sunday-walk. It is a body-experience where you experience unbelievable powers. That´s part of how we help bringing the souls onto earth.